It wasn't easy to leave you. I actually never even wanted to be without you. But you left me with no choice.
You broke me in ways I never thought I could be broken.
You act like I'm the most important thing in the world to you when it's convenient for you. You treat me like a queen when it suits you. You pay attention to me and make me your priority when it works for you.
But I deserve to be treated that way all of the time not, just some of the time.
You act like I'm easy to come by. Like girls like me are a dime a dozen. Well they're not. I never thought you would make me feel this way and it kills me to have realized that you don't truly appreciate me.
If you did appreciate me you would have never treated me the way you did. Blowing me off like I'll just be there waiting for you the next day. Making me chase you when you couldn't think to contact me. If I was so important to you, you would never put me in the positions you've put me in.
I'm tired of making excuses in my head for you. I'm tired of trying to rationalize your messed up behavior.
You don't deserve me.
And I hate that I realized that because it means I have to let you go.
This is not how you love someone.
You don't make someone feel unimportant when you love them. You don't make them feel like you don't care about them. You don't "forget" to contact them. You don't lie to them. You don't keep things from them that they deserve to know.
And if you love someone, you value them. You don't just let them slip away. You don't go days without contacting them and go about living your life like they never mattered.
If you truly love and value someone, you don't put yourself in a position to lose them.
And most of all, you don't hurt them over and over again.
But thank you for hurting me because you've proven to me that I'm better off without you.