She has a big heart, but she’s selfish. She loves hard, but she always puts herself and her own needs first. So if that’s what defines her as selfish, so be it. It’s only because she’s fully aware of her own worth and knows to a T what she deserves, so the only people in her life are the ones who make her truly happy.
She’s selfish with her family. At the end of the day, they are her everything. That’s why she takes up all of their time. She wants to memorize every wrinkle on their faces when they smile. She wants to be able to hear their voices in her head long after their gone.
She wants to laugh at every joke her dad has, no matter how many times she’s already heard them. She pushes them to do the things she likes to do because she knows it’ll break them out of their comfort zones.
Growing with them is important to her, she wants to create unbreakable bonds filled with unconditional love. She wants the memories with them, the stories, the pictures. She wants it all.
Because one day, they aren’t going to be there for her to run to. One day she’s going to be left on this earth to fend for herself and that leaves her with a heavy heart. So right now, she’s selfish with them.
She’s selfish with the boy she loves. She spends hours wrapped up in his arms. She tells him to tell her he loves her so she can hear it one more time. She kisses him in public and never lets her hand slip out of his.
He means the absolute world to her and it’s this feeling of being able to let down all of her walls around him that she never wants to let go of. So she holds him tight and soaks up every second of her time with him.
She pushes him to introduce her to his family because they are the ones who brought him to her. She pushes for him to meet her parents because together they make up the most important people in her life. She’s selfish with his presence.
She doesn’t want expensive dinners or surprise gifts, those always fade. But what will never fade is her infatuation with him. He makes her feel the happiest she’s ever been so she’ll never let that go.
She’s selfish with her future. It’s hers and no one else’s, that’s the cold hard truth. And as much as she appreciated the advice from the people in her life, she knows exactly what it is she wants. Only she truly knows what is best for her and she’s not naive.
She knows full well she only has one future to do what she wants with, so she will. So she took that internship, even though it paid nothing at all. And she spent her summers at the beach with her friends instead of job hunting. Because she knows, years from now, she’s going to thank herself for taking time to do exactly what it is she wanted.
She’s selfish with her time. She goes on adventures as much as she can, even the little kind. She goes hiking on Saturday mornings instead of sleeping in. She takes off in her car to explore the city instead of just going home after work. She surprises her mom with lunch in the middle of the day instead of eating at her desk.
She will never yes anyone to death if she straight up does not want to do something she has no problem saying no. She knows every minute is precious and doesn’t want to spend one not enjoying herself.
More importantly, she doesn’t allow her mind to get caught up in her worries. That’s how she loses time. Not everything is going to fall into place exactly how she wants it, when she wants it, she gets that. Being a realistic person, she knows everything will be okay no matter what happens.
But she’ll never be selfish to a fault. She’ll never be the girl who loses sight of important people because she’s too busy looking out for herself. She’ll never be the girl who forgets about those she holds dear because she wanted to travel.
Life takes balance, taking care of yourself and allowing yourself to indulge in the people who mean most. She’ll be kind, graceful, independent, but also dependent at times, romantic, stubborn, loving, and selfish because she loves herself.
Some people will never understand and that’s okay too. She just has to remember that not everyone in this world is going to love her and understand that her happiness is just as important as their own. In fact, this will be because they are being selfish in a bad way.
Life is too short to be unhappy. Be selfish.
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