I don’t know about you but I felt like us meeting was fate.
I had never seen anyone as cool as you, but it wasn’t love at first sight.
No, I fell in love with you over a series of long talks, late night walks and restless nights.
You became a permanent piece of my being, and I liked it that way. Your name etched in my heart and your memory tattooed onto my wrist.
I fell in love with the way your eyes crinkle when you smile, the way you laugh, the brown speckles in your beautiful green eyes, but most importantly I fell in love with your heart.
You are one of the kindest men I have ever met.
It took a long time to admit that we were meant to be together but somehow you always just knew. It seemed too good to be true, and it was.
We got lost somewhere between the chaos and eight hour flights and couldn’t find our way back to each other.
Our love started like a fire, slow, and then it consumed us.
The thing about fires though, when left unattended they leave destruction in their wake. Just know that I never intended for things to end the way they did.
I disappeared after a while because seeing your face opened all the hurt of our breakup over and over again.
I walked around in a haze for the months I was gone. When the haze finally cleared one thing became certain: I still believed that we were meant to be.
I know you believe that too. Timing isn’t always perfect and life has a funny way of always making things difficult.
I must believe that we will make it through this, that eventually things will go back to normal between us.
You always say that you feel like we never really had our shot.
While I’m inclined to disagree, I will give you that we have always had extenuating circumstances.
There will always be a few circumstances that I can’t change and you know that. I’m working on the things I can change now because I want us to work.
I want to always have those long talks, I want “La Vie En Rose??? on the Ukulele, I want the restless nights.
I want us.
I have to believe that meeting you really was fate and that with time we will work through this and have the ending we have both dreamed of for so long.
Even if they don’t, I want you to know that I love you and I always will.