She knew deep down in her heart that she is the right girl but met him at the wrong time. If only we had met later in life. It all started out wrong and then started to turn right. It came to a bonfire size bang at the end. He told her that he wanted to give it a shot and man did he. But the truth is he just wasn’t read.
He wasn’t ready to settle down in life. He wants to reach his goals, make X amount, travel X amount of places, and get his wild out of his system. He never knew that he met the right girl at the wrong time. He won’t realize until later that she was the right one but timing will never be perfect.
They know they can’t make it as long distance lovers or only as friends. They spent hours planning their future together. Walking through Home Depot picking and compromising on every detail of the home that they would live in together.
Spending hours in each others arms knowing how this just felt right. How seeing that smile lit up her whole world. She knows that this is where she is suppose to be but can’t be.
She fights the pain every day of saying Good-bye to the love of her life. Know deep down she deserves better than he was giving but it doesn’t make it any easier to watch him give up and walk away.
She wishes she could give him more to make him see that she is the perfect girl. The one who will put up with his attitude and anger when he finally blows after locking it all away. The one who will hold him when he shuts down emotionally and is hurt by the world. She is the one who will support him and give anything he needs to succeed in life. She has always been there for him, always one call away.
She knows what her future holds with him. She can see it clear as day. Kids playing in the yard with the dog as she has her arm rapped around his waist on the porch watching. She looks up and can see the peaceful smile on his lips as he holds her tight. She knows they’ve made it. The cars, the house, the careers, the family, all of it theirs to share.
It’s not easy watching it all blow away in the wind as you give up on him and drive away. It is life changing and heart crushing to be the right girl at the wrong time.
Its crushing to know that he could never know that feeling of being the right girl. That he could change his ways and be with someone else. Never to know what she knows deep down in her heart.
She can’t make him change, she can’t make him see what she sees, or feel what she feels. She wishes that she could move on from the pain but doesn’t want to give up that maybe one day he will see her value and come back.
She is constantly struggling with wanting to let go and not wanting to give up on him. She is wishing that she could give up but wishes he would come running through the door. She use to love him sober but now the love is hidden behind the whiskey on her lips and the tears running down her face.
One day she will move on with her life because she deserves better and is the right girl. Maybe one he will see and call her up. Maybe he will be to late. That is the funny thing about life is you will never know.
