People always think that those who have depression just seek for attention. They automatically assume that it's all in the mind and that those who have it just wants to bury themselves into the loneliness that the world offers.
Those who are suffering from this serious mental illness, It’s time to step up and be heard. People who aren’t confident enough to show their true colors because they know they will be judged right away.
My depression started when I struggle with living alone. And that's when I tried to end my life. I overdosed myself with pain medicine and if someone didn't call 911, I would have died already. I went to a mental health facility and stayed there for a few days. No one knows I was there. Not even a single person. No one. Things got harder for me and it made me more depressed. So when I was being treated in that facility, I was diagnosed with major depression.
I somehow knew I had it in me for a long time but I have always been in denial. I guess I needed a professional to tell it to me straight up for me to actually acknowledge, believe, and accept it. And I must say, people need to understand that mental illness isn't a joke. Having depression and anxiety isn't a choice.
You think people wanted to have it? Of course not. People with depression are not always overthinking, always creating problems or worries that aren't really there. You think we wanna live our daily lives with fear out of nothing? You think we wanna live our lives having fear of the unknown? No. This illness isn't something we just come up with for attention nor for us to be bashed about.
I just wanna tell people that we, the people who suffer from mental illness, need more understanding. If you people aren't willing to do that for us, at least, cut us some slack and just leave us the f*** alone. You have no right to judge us just because it's so hard for you to accept that we are going through something you’re lucky enough not to experience for yourselves.
Why not try to fit in our shoes? And try to open your minds and from there, maybe you won't be as judging as you all are.
Mental illness is not a choice. It never has been and it never will be. We, the people who have it, we need to be reassured of our worth. We need people to make us feel we are loved, wanted, and valued cos if not, that's when negative thoughts escalate.
Just be there for those who are experiencing it. Or at least try. Waking up everyday is a struggle for us. The moment we wake up, we over-think and we get anxious, or at least that's me.
Right now, I'm not even asking for happiness anymore, just a little less pain from living this world would be so damn nice.
I don't need pity. I don't need no fake concern and fake love. , I simply want awareness from people. I just want people to be more open minded and a little less judging.
"Those who commit suicide don't want really want to end their lives, they just want to end their pain."
Please be kind enough to share this and spread the awareness.