Let me start by saying that- this is not an article about how much I hate myself. This is not an article saying I wish I was tall, blonde, and an absolute bombshell. This is an article about how I don’t wish to change, only to grow. This is an article about the woman I aspire to be one day.
I wouldn’t change my goofy, loud laugh. I wouldn’t change the place I grew up or the people I have loved and lost. I DEFINITELY wouldn’t change the fact that I know every word to “no Vaseline” by Ice Cube. I wouldn’t change how big my heart is. I wouldn’t change the fact that I would swim oceans for people who wouldn’t jump puddles for me. I would not change the fact that I do not see color, shape, or size. I don’t want to be the woman that every man wants- and every other woman wants to be. I don’t want to be the “it” girl. I don’t want to be loved broadly, but deeply. I don’t want to be the woman that turns every head in the room or causes a traffic jam.
I want to be the kind of woman who is patient, kind, and charismatic. I want to be the kind of woman who radiates love and kindness wherever the wind takes her. I want to be the kind of woman who doesn’t let the opinions of the people who do not agree with her morals or beliefs bother her. I want to be the kind of woman that people feel like they can be nothing short of themselves around. I want to be the kind of woman that is understanding and does not judge. I want to be the kind of woman who loves with her entire heart and nothing less. I want to be the kind of charismatic woman who inspires people to be patient, loving, and kind to ALL people. I want to be the kind of woman who enjoys the more simplistic things in life. I want to be the kind of woman who pays it forward, who offers a meal to the homeless man on the street. I want to be a humble woman, a kind woman, a selfless woman. I want to be a strong woman.
The kind of woman I want to be, is a woman who doesn’t have to wonder about what kind of woman she is.
