A big sister can be a difficult role to fill. Being the eldest, you’re supposed to pave the way for your younger siblings all while navigating life for yourself.
When I first came into this world, my sister was promoted from being the only child. For a while, I was your personal baby doll, but then I started growing up and became this annoying little sister. All I wanted to do was hang out with you and your friends because truth be told I just wanted to be you.
We’re a handful of years apart, so you’ve always been the older, cooler sister.It was amazing to be the only kid in middle school who had an older sister that was able to drive.
We were always so close growing up, especially with our rooms being right next to each other. You have always been a role model for me growing up. You taught me how to dress, how to do my hair and most importantly you taught me how to not make the mistakes you made.
When you left for college it felt like my world was ending. After we dropped you off at your dorm, I remember crying the entire drive back home. It all became too real. The thought of being left alone in the house with just mom and dad was so upsetting. Our lives were about to completely change and I wasn’t prepared to do things without you or start going to Starbucks alone.
It was kind of hard to keep our close bond with you off at school living this new life and me back at home. We would talk as often as we could, but you were an adult now and I was just this kid and our worlds were now so different. Then you became apart of your sorority and had all of these new sisters. This made me so jealous. At the time, I didn’t fully understand how you were able to acquire all these new sisters that you had all this fun with, instead of me.
When you moved back home after graduation, we both morphed into these completely new people. I came out of my shell and was no longer this little girl with freckles and baby chub. I became an outgoing, mature girl who had this new found self-confidence. You almost didn’t recognize your not so little sister anymore.
We went through this phase where we had to relearn each other. Needing to figure out these new people who we had developed into. This was a hard, but rewarding process to go through. Although some times we struggle, especially now that I’m the sister in college and will once again be developing into a new version of myself.
At least we now know how to go about our relationship through its many twists and turns.
I’m so grateful to have a big sister, best friend, and role model like you in my life. I look up to you in so many ways, you probably don’t even realize it.
You have shown me determination and how to make mistakes and learn from them. Not to mention, you have given me a second wardrobe. What I’m actually truly grateful for is that we wear the same size now.
I seriously don’t know what I would do without you in my life. Granted although our relationship isn’t perfect, they say you only fight with people you truly love because of how much you care about them. So, I guess we care about each other a whole lot. Thank you for accepting me as I am, my craziness and all.
I am so lucky to have a big sister like you.
