It’s been awhile since we talked, but I feel like we just ended things yesterday.
Throughout our relationship, we had talked for hours on end about what we wanted out of life and we wanted similar things. We both wanted the basics, to become financially stable, get married, have a family, etc. We had other goals that matched, too. With us being so young, there was no rush to get it all together tomorrow, but we were supposed to work towards it together over time.
I don’t know why, but you tried skipping steps. You wanted to do things completely backwards. You wanted a baby more than anything, but that’s not what we needed at this point in our lives.
You switched up. Maybe it’s because you’re too young to be ready to settle down and get it all together. Or maybe it’s because you couldn’t have it your way because I wasn’t willing to do things backwards and have a baby before we were ready. Either way, you bailed.
When you bailed, I was hurt. I didn’t couldn’t quite wrap my head around how all the plans we had together were just suddenly gone. It was hard to make it through the day with everyone asking for updates on my life with you, but it was even harder to come home to the bed that we were supposed to share.
As time has passed, I’ve realized that those plans aren’t gone. Sure, we’re not going to act them out together, but I don’t need you to become financially stable. I’ll find another man for the marriage and family part, a man who’s sure of a future with me. Those plans are still there. We just won’t be doing it together.
So thank you for helping me come up with a plan, but now it’s my time to act it out alone. I hope one day you decide to get it together and that one day you’ll be living the life we always talked about. I only wish the best for you. Whoever you end up with will be a lucky woman because the finished product of you is going to be one great man. You have a good head on your shoulders. You’re just not ready yet..
Sincerely,
The Girl Who’s Doing it Alone