I don't know where you are or if I have met you yet, but I am so excited for our life together. My dream is to have a big family, be happy, and spend time enjoying life. I am so excited for that day because it will change the rest of my life. But before you can love me forever, there are some things you need to know…
I have a lot of emotional baggage.
Yes, everyone else does too, but I've been through more than most. I've been heart broken time after time. I care so instantly and so deeply that it makes me vulnerable to getting hurt a lot.
I've seen some really low days.
On those days I wonder if I even have any strength left to pick myself up and carry on. Those days? They're not pretty. Please just bear with me through them and love me enough to help us get through them.
Sometimes I can be crazy.
I spend hours obsessing over one thing, I take forever to fall asleep, and I have a major coffee addiction that makes me bounce off the walls at times. Within all that craziness, I promise there's someone who is caring, sweet, and funny.
I don't always have time to look perfect.
Sometimes I look like a complete mess. That's just how I am, and it's not going to change. I don't feel the need for a full face of makeup to go shopping, or to dress up to go to the movies. But when I do get fancy, I hope it takes your breath away.
It took me years to become the woman I am today.
It took a ton of tears, scars, and therapists to be the person standing in front of you on our wedding day. But when that day comes, I'm ready. I'm going to be ready to care for you, irritate you, love you, and have the most amazing times with you, for the long haul.
A marriage commitment is forever in my eyes.
I have seen people get divorces and I know I will never allow that to happen in my life. The day I say 'I do", I mean that. All I ask is for you love, acceptance, and loyalty. If you can promise me those things, I will love you until the end of time.
