I know lately things haven't been easy. It’s been a roller-coaster of ups and downs, of crying, and the inevitable emotionally draining battle of mind vs heart. But I promise you that I’m worth it.
I screwed up, I lost the person I truly love, which in itself was a whole new level of heartbreak; where I truly felt the feelings of loss and pain. At the time I didn’t realize I would be making one of the biggest mistakes of my life, I didn’t realize how important you were, and how much I needed you.
I’m sorry for always being there half-halfheartedly, especially near the end of our relationship. For the other half of me was always masked in self-doubt of whether I am worthy of you and if I was worthy of the love you had to offer.
I don’t know if we’ll be alright, and I don’t know what the future will bring. But right now I want to thank you for not only keeping an open mind, but also for trying to understand mine. For all of your patience through all of this, I really appreciate all that you do.
Thank you for looking at me like I was the most important person in the world, like there was nowhere else you’d rather be when we were together, even now.
I made you a promise that I would always be here for you, no matter what. I intend to stick to that promise, and I hope you realize that I will always be here. I’m not leaving you again and if I could undo the mistakes I made in the past, I would. But unfortunately, that isn’t an option.
So, here’s to hoping we can figure this out, and give it another shot.
And this time I won't let you go.
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