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To the Best Friend Who Made Me Catch Feelings

I told myself I wouldn't fall for you or even start to develop feelings, but it happened.

We both got out of shitty relationships and came to the conclusion we didn't want anything more than just casually hooking up.

Now, we both became unsure of it because I fell for you and you didn't fall for me. 

I can't help that you make me laugh and that when everything seems like a mess you're a shoulder to lean on.

You've helped me grow and as awful as this sounds, you've helped me move on from my shitty relationship.

I wouldn't call you my rebound and I wouldn't say that I'm in love with you…In like with you? Yes. Definitely.

I can't help that'll I'll miss laying in bed, talking about life, and getting in random tickle fights the most and I can't help that I started developing more feelings for you when it wasn't mutual.

It'll be hard to see you with other girls, but I promise to support every decision you make and I'll try not to let my emotions get the best of me or jealousy.

I hope you'll still be the person I can turn to and talk about life with and you don't become uncomfortable with being around in general. 

I hope that the next person sees how special and how good of a person you are and doesn't take it for granted.

But most of all, I hope that there will still be an "us" even if it's not the "us" I'm looking for.