To the boy I tried to change,
I am sorry. I am sorry that I tried to change your countless times. I wanted you to be the guy I needed. You were not that guy but I sure as hell hoped you were.
After knowing you for some many years and us being so close for so long I always hoped you would be that guy who would be there for me. I wanted the perfect relationship with you. But you needed your friends more than love. You needed to be drunk and high more than you needed me. I am sorry I couldn’t help you.
After countless nights of crying myself to sleep because you couldn’t even text me to tell me goodnight or that you were out with friends so you would talk to me tomorrow. Or the multiple times I would wake up in the morning for work and see pictures all over your snap story with other girls all over. I decided it was time to let go, no matter the pain it would cause me.
Once I finally gave up on trying to change you and I was able to move on, I found myself again and found the person I needed. That person just happened to be me, I needed to find myself and be okay with who I was.
I could of been the girl who saved you. I will make a great wife and mother someday. I cared about you and your wellbeing so much. You just didn’t care about me.
After I accepted that you would never be who I needed and I found myself. I was able to find someone who could be who I needed. He treats me like I deserve and helps me find my smile and hope in my life.
So I guess more than me being sorry for trying to change you, I am thankful you couldn’t change for me. Thankful you forced me to find my inner strength to move on and find myself.
Sincerely,
The girl who you broke one to many times
