I was left shattered in pieces after my last relationship. Everything after one year came crashing down before my eyes in one text.
I didn’t know what to believe anymore. Why was I attracting such horrible men? Will I get ghosted again in the future? Am I a bad girlfriend? Am I bad in bed? Did I not see the warning signs? I just couldn’t decipher reality from my thoughts anymore. I was left in a confused daze.
I slowly began losing my sense of self that year, wrapped up in my ex’s manipulative games and lies. I became a shell of person he wanted me to be and was hollow on the inside.
I’m not denying that my ex was a bad person, but I take full responsibility to how I reacted to it. I should have walked away once I realized he was bad news. But I stayed. Because I wanted to see the good in him. And quite frankly, I didn’t even realize how negatively I was affected until I was out of the relationship.
The dysfunction threw my life into a whirlwind. And somewhere within this whirlwind, you showed up. You’ve always been there in the background, but now you came to the forefront of my life.
We’ve always been friends and you showed up as a friend to lift me back up in a time of need. But somewhere between catching up and hanging out and talking a little more than usual, you’re become a more prominent person in my life. I was enjoying your company so much I started to forget I was even heartbroken.
I think I am catching the feels for you, and I think you are catching them for me too. I never saw this coming, it snuck up on me slowly and then bit me in the a**. I love how this journey with you is unraveling ever so slowly but surely. I am in no rush.
Thank you for bringing me back to who I am, a unicorn and for seeing how more than enough I am as a human. I found myself and my worth just by being in your presence. You light up my world brighter than it’s ever been. I am no longer a shell of myself, but a brand new richer version of myself.
Thank you for making an effort for me in ways he didn’t even bother to try. Thank you for seeing me as a special human rather just a pretty exterior. Thank you for enjoying my company and laughing with me.
I haven’t laughed this hard in such a long time. I had forgotten what love felt like for a long time and you reminded me. I remember how beautiful love is, and how it builds you up instead of tearing you down.
I am enjoying all the late nights we spend texting each other, I have never literally laughed out loud to myself so much. I love seeing your name come up on my phone throughout the day knowing that you’re thinking about me. I love looking forward to the next time I get to see you and what crazy adventure we go on next.
I don’t know where things go from here or what we will be, but I am enjoying the ride with you and I will forever be grateful that you came into my life and snapped me out of my distorted past.
My faith in life, love, and myself has been restored.