Be patient with the walls I built around me, for they were not made to harm you but meant to protect me.
Don’t give up when I distance myself as you get closer. I still get scared to open my heart and trust again.
I still carry the heavy baggage from the person that came before you.
Maybe the cut inside my heart was deeper than I thought.
But please keep trying, no matter what, to save me from self-destruction, to break the barriers I surrounded myself with, to understand the demons I fight against.
Give me a reason to get out of the bed every morning even if it is against my will at first.
Show me a whole new world out there that’s different from the regret and misery I’m taunted by.
Remind me how to smile again and how to cry with nothing other than joy.
Release the butterflies in my stomach and let them fly there for as long as they can live.
Love me with that heart that loves God.
I need you to help me see the life I missed while I was searching for my missing piece in the wrong places, hold my hands when it’s raining outside and I can’t help but zone out to the past, and stay with me during the nights I suddenly feel lonely and want someone by my side.
Bear with me for all the times that I become a huge mess.
But most importantly, have faith that soon I will get better because I promise I will love you with my every molecule.
I will sacrifice my life in your favor just like what Jack did for Rose.
You always will be my top priority.
I will take a bullet for you right between the eyes, be your confidante, your knight in shining armor, your most trusted ally, and give you everything you need.
Our thing is going to be romantic dates on Saturday nights and cuddles with you on Sunday mornings.
I can’t wait to be able to rest my head on your shoulder and calmly listen to all your frustrations and unfulfilled dreams.
If you shiver I will be your warmth. I will kiss you passionately just because you deserve the sweetest lips.
I want to look you in the eyes and tell you nothing but honesty.
And I promise you all of this, darling until our hairs turn to white and we reminisce the years that flew by.
I’ll stay with you until our tattoos fade on our skins and we laugh every time we see how bad they turned out.
We’ll turn out exactly like how we criticized our grandparents who can only groove to slow dances. We’ll grow weak and never let go of our hands-on hospital beds.
And just before we close our eyes, we will look at each other one last beautiful time.
So if you’re willing to love me next, know that I need a little time to fix the cracks in my soul.
Please be understanding of all my tragedies and please, please, please take good care of my heart.
I guarantee you that at every end of the day, it’s always going to be a beautiful sunset with me by your side.
