I looked at you like the stars in the sky.
You were perfect in my eyes.
What did I do wrong for you not to love me?
I was a child asking myself what was wrong with me?
Days went by, still nothing.
I cried myself to sleep at night,
PRAYING you would come home.
You didn't.
I started to grow up.
I resented you.
I didn't long for you anymore.
I realized everyone was right,
YOU were the one missing out. Not me.
Going to my friends houses and seeing them
with their fathers made me jealous.
How could you just forget about me?
I never got that protection over me like a father does
for his daughter.
You stole that from me.
As I grew up, I thought less and less about you.
But somehow, you always seemed to creep back up on me.
I went on dates, dated a few guys.
But it didn't feel right. I didn't know how a guy was supposed
to treat me so I let them treat me like dirt.
You weren't there to make sure they treated me
like a princess.
I have trust issues now.
Ones too deep to ever be able to fill.
And the worst part about it is,
knowing I'm getting older and I'll get married one day….
& I won't have you to walk me down the aisle.