You were one of a kind. You were the only person I’d ever fully put my trust into. The only person I never doubted, even for a second. The only person that had never lied to me…or so I thought.
We had an amazing, healthy relationship. There were hardly any arguments. We had so much fun together and it was completely effortless. You were my very best friend. We never kept secrets from each other…or so I thought.
You treated me amazing and made me feel so safe. You were actually in love with me and not just pretending like those before you…or so I thought.
I thought wrong.
After all this time, you ghosted me. I still have no explanation as to why…or so you think.
Turns out you were two different people the entire time we were together…one to me, and one to everyone else.
To me, you loved me. To everyone else, you hadn’t in a long time and I just wouldn’t leave you alone.
To me, you hadn’t cheated on me, and never would. To everyone else, you already had, several times over.
To me, our relationship was serious and actually meant something. To everyone else, it was nothing more than a joke.
You made me look like a complete fucking idiot. You literally lived two separate lives the entire time we were together.
Throughout our whole relationship, I was thinking that I was so incredibly lucky to have someone that was always honest with me and that I could trust, yet you were doing nothing but lying to me.
I wonder how many times I thought you weren’t responding to texts because you were asleep or at work, and you were really with another girl.
I wonder how many times you actually were responding, bullshitting me, while you were still lying in bed next to some girl you’d just fucked the night before.
I wonder how many stories you’ve told me that I’ve gotten a fucked up, bullshit version of because they actually involved whatever bitch you were with at that point in time.
I wonder how many times you ditched me, asked me not to come see you, or missed important things because you had plans with someone else.
I wonder how many of them knew about me and didn’t even care.
I wonder if you even feel bad…
But most of all, I wonder how long it’ll be before the girl you left me for realizes who you really are. I wonder if you can keep her fooled for as long as you did me.
For her sake, I hope not.
You’ve destroyed me.
You saw this happen to me before you. You watched what it did to me and how long it took me to recover…and you’ve intentionally made me start over.
I will never forgive you for that.
No one should be this good or this okay with lying and destroying another person without even so much as an apology.
You took everything I thought of you and completely demolished it.
I will never feel the same about you.
Since you don’t have the courtesy to say it yourself, consider this our good-bye.