The world out there is full of people who are going to hurt you, lie to you, and break your heart. How can I be sure you’re not one of those people?
If I let you in, then know that I am serious about you. I will never make you question how I feel about you. I promise you that you will know how much I care about you and how much you mean to me.
Please just know that this is a big deal for me. You are likely the first that I have really opened up for in a long time I let you see past all the bluster and the bullshit. Please also know that this is not easy for me and it is not your fault.
For that, you can blame the ones from my past.
It takes time for me to feel comfortable and to let people in. Take the time to peel back my layers and get to the core of what makes me, me. There's a quote from One Tree Hill that I think puts it best: “Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep people away, but to see who cares enough to tear down those walls."
I put these walls up both to protect myself and to see who is willing to bring them down.
I have been hurt before, as have many others, so trust me when I say that I understand. I may be a little bent, but I am not broken. With some time, energy, and a lot of patience on your end I can be good as new.
My past has made me who I am. Sometimes I come off as cold, like I don’t need you. I’m just used to being on my own and doing everything for myself. I am that independent girl.
I don’t need you, but I want you. And that makes all the difference. So maybe I am a little cold, a little distant, a little tough. But this is my protection.
I just need to be reassured sometimes. I’m used to questioning feelings, constantly worrying, and feeling unwanted. So, on the other hand, I can be very needy too. It's not that I will always need you physically- I will need you mentally and emotionally.
Please don’t make me question how you feel about me.
I don’t need you to spend money on me or spend every second by my side, but I do need to feel safe in my feelings for you. I've been burned in the past and sometimes I worry that if it happens one more time, I'll never open up to love again.
This is a two way street. I have so much love to give if you’ll let me. I want to give it to you. I want to feel lucky, lucky like Brooke Davis talks about when she said, "and if you're lucky, I mean the luckiest person on this entire planet– the person you love decides to love you back."