The day is nearing when you will go though a day without hearing from me. The days will turn into weeks and then, all at once I will just be part of your past that few people knew about.
I will be near your work and not shoot you a text to see if you can take a few minutes out of your day to say hi. You always said no but I still offered.
My time was valuable and I am valuable. But you couldn’t see it.
I spent months waiting for you to make time for me. I gave you countless chances to just say yes. I just needed you to choose me once.
There was always an excuse. I asked many times for you just to tell me if you didn’t want to see me but without fail, you instead always had an excuse to make me feel bad.
I am not asking you to leave your girlfriend. I am not asking you to take me to an extravagant date. I am not even asking you to be in public with me.
I would honestly sit in the car with you so I could just get a chance to look you in the eyes and hear your voice again.
I need closure. After months of being disappearing words on a phone, I want to know the truth about the agonizing pain that I feel everyday.
Do I really love you or just the idea of who you were when things were different? I keep waiting for you to make up your mind and I dont get to weigh my options.
I do not know what you gain out of this. I have given you the chance to rid me of your life. I have asked for you to just let me know that you don’t want me communicating with you.
In my heart I know that you wouldn’t keep me on the line if you didn’t think there was a possibility of things being different for us in the future but maybe you just like feeling wanted.
Maybe you have grown accustomed to my unconditional admiration and the fact that I let you have a say in my life even though you are barely part of it.
But if things don’t change soon, you will wake up and my name will not flash across your phone. Our paths will not cross. I will just be a distant memory.