You have been there or know someone who has. Some people had it a little more rough than others; for some people, it is was milder. Some people dealt with it a little while longer than others; for some people, they only had it for a short time. There is one thing for certain, though; at one point, you have thought about throwing in the towel and you think you just can’t anymore.
You have grown tired; tired of putting on a mask and walking tall, tired of walking on eggshells, tired of lying to ourselves. You are completely exhausted of dealing with something that seems to never go away. It just feels like unpaid bills keeping adding up and you don’t have the money to pay them. You are sinking into this emotional debt, and want to file for bankruptcy.
You have thought about it. You have thought about it several times. You think about what it would be like, what the consequences were, outweighed the pros and cons, and even replayed the scenario in your head a million times. You constantly ask yourself or God why you feel this way. You feel you’re ringing a doorbell to a vacant house because no one understands or no one can help.
Just let me tell you something…
It does get better. I know you have heard it from lots of people lots of times. Honestly, it probably became annoying to you. It became annoying to me, but that is the key. I heard it so many damn times and it made me so angry every time I heard it that it was replaying in my head. It was a constant reminder. It rang whenever I started to feel that way. It screamed, “You can!”, especially on days where I hoped I wouldn’t wake up. It got my ass out of bed and went on through the day. Every time I thought I had to stop, it rang again. It woke me up and opened my eyes.
You definitely can do it. You just need that constant reminder. Whether that ringing is the sound of your best friend’s laugh, seeing the excitement that your dog had when you walked in the door when you came home, the taste of your favorite food hitting all of your taste buds, smelling the fresh cut grass, or feeling the touch of your significant other; your constant reminder will help you. Don’t ever think you can’t go on anymore for something so temporary. It’s not like a tattoo. It’s not permanent.
