What you failed to understand is the fact that I’ve seen it all. I know what it’s like to have your heart broken by people you trusted too many times. I have witnessed the hurt that people experience from all sorts of relationships and for some crazy reason I decided to give this one a try.
I guess the thing that gets me the most is I wasn’t even looking for you. I was so content in my singleness and loved every aspect of my life without a significant other. Then you came along. You came out of nowhere and made me feel something different. You made me feel so special, like I was the only girl in the world that mattered to you. Everyone has heard the saying that “You’ll find love when you stop looking.” Well… that’s exactly what I thought too.
For a while there we were perfect. We were like two gears that fit perfectly together, weren’t we? But something changed. It wasn’t me, it was you. You decided I just wasn’t enough for you. I poured out every ounce of love I could possibly give a person, and it still wasn’t enough for you. Instead of accepting that I couldn’t be what you wanted, I kept trying. I never wanted to give up on us and what we had because it was once so good. And instead of being honest with your feelings, you kept me around for your own benefit.
In the moment of it all, I guess I just had faith in you, but I know better now than to put my hope in the wrong people. You convinced a girl with demons of her past that she was finally safe only to rip that away for another person. And now you’re saying you want to be “friends”. What sickens me most is the fact that you knew every aspect of my personality. You knew exactly the hurt and pain my background came with, and you still lied. But it was all some kind of sick game to you, wasn’t it? You used and abused me and instead of asking for forgiveness, you’re asking even more of me.
You broke my heart and for some reason you still believe we could make it work, but the answer is no. The truth is I’m not going to waste more of my time fighting for someone who isn’t willing to fight for me in return.
