We aren’t in a relationship, but we definitely aren’t "just friends." Living somewhere in-between feels like being trapped in quicksand, never quite able to get out.
We always seem to find our way back to each other, no matter how far we may stray. We let each other in with open arms, take center stage in each other's lives for a bit, then exit just as quickly as we came in.
I know that I don't control our fate, but I can believe in it. You’re the only guy I’ve ever wanted and that feeling is so hard to shake.
But I can’t do this anymore.
Day after day, I gave you my all. Every ounce of my energy is poured into working on us and trying to be enough for you. But now, I need to focus that energy on myself.
I refuse to put my heart on the line and almost be with you anymore; it's just too much. I need you to love me entirely or not at all, I'm done looking for a middle ground.
There's no denying that love is there, but I won't keep clinging to the fading hope that we'll make it through this.
Regardless of it all, I need you to know how much I love you. If you had just given me a reason, I would have stuck it out for as long as you needed.
But this unhealthy cycle of being “just friends” until I ask the forbidden question, ”what are we?” needs to stop.
Because now I know exactly what I want out of a relationship, and it’s just not you.
You were so close to being everything I needed and wanted and I tried so hard to believe that you were.
But I’ve realized that loving someone with all your heart doesn’t always mean those feelings will be reciprocated. So here I am, with tears in my eyes, finally telling you goodbye.
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