When you’re usually the girl whose super friendly and full of smiles and one day you’re not, it seems to be a big fucking deal for other people.
Like something horrible must’ve happened that, god forbid, I don’t have a smile on my face.
You’re allowed to literally just wake up in a bad mood. You don’t have to force yourself to put up a front for others.
I suffered from social anxiety when I was little and being overwhelmed with people at family events was pretty much the end of the world to me.
I would walk in and instantly be so uncomfortable.
After hours of being overwhelmed with everyone’s energy, I’d become extremely sensitive and emotional. Which would come off bratty.
The sad part was that I was looked at in that way when I had had enough and could not help it.
When my confidence went up in high school my anxiety got way better. And after high school, anxiety was a thing of the past and confidence was through the roof.
Which is all sunshine and roses util that backfires.
When people expect you to be always be 100% and suddenly you’re not, they judge. They wonder what’s wrong with you, but not in a concerned way. More like your bad mood is an inconvenience to them.
Not that I’m ever rude in any way, I simply get quiet. Which is against the rules I guess?!?!
Being told to smile is a huge pet peeve of mine. If I wanted to smile, I’d have a fucking smile on my face.
It doesn’t mean anything’s wrong. If anything, I’m thinking super hard about something. Thanks for asking if I’m okay, but if I respond that I am then leave it the hell alone. Because bugging me only makes me not okay.
You don’t have to show up to every event with a grin painted across your face. You don’t have to force yourself to go to things that you don’t want to when you know it’ll only bring you discomfort.
You don’t have to do anything for the approval of other’s. If you are judged in a negative way because you were having an off day once, then the people judging you are the problem.
Everyone deals with things in their own way.
Cancelling plans at the last minute may seem inconsiderate to one person, but to the other person it could mean the difference between a quiet night at home or an anxiety attack.
