I wake up in the middle of the night with a text from you… "I miss you.”
Of course, you miss me. I was good to you… I was good for you.
I don’t need a stupid text for me to know that you still think of me. I know, because when I see you, I see the sadness in your eyes when you look at me. I see you fall apart at just the sound of my name. And I see you force yourself to walk away because it kills you to not know everything about me anymore.
I know, because you have made every possible attempt to avoid me. When we’ve ended up at the same place, you’ve blatantly ignored me. You’ve blocked me on all forms of social media. But does that really help you sleep at night?
To the outsider, it looks like I did something so horrible to you that you hate me with your entire being. But the truth is, you know you messed up, so it hurts you to see me. You let your pride get in the way so you mask your hurt with anger.
It eats you inside that I’m the one who has actually moved on. I’m the one who’s smile is genuine and who’s laugh is real. It hurts you because you know I’m never going to be yours again.
You miss me because I breathed life back into you.
You miss me because I lit a fire in your soul.
Because when I touched you, you could feel it in your bones. I opened up a world to you that you had never known.
This must be quite the paradox for you. What you miss the most is what made you run away in the first place. What I was giving you was something so extraordinary that it scared you.
So you settled back into a life of comfort, with a girl you are comfortable with. But she isn’t someone whom you are passionate about. She isn’t someone who makes you feel alive. She isn’t someone who reminds you of everything you are and everything you could be.
She doesn’t make you love and appreciate life, the way I did. You miss me because I’m everything you wish you could be but never will be.
And that must be a really tough realization to come to, that you let go of the best thing in your life and you’ll never get it back.
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