You Have My Whole Heart, and What Hurts the Most Is That You Don't Want It

Everything between us is love because I am in love with you.

But you never know how you feel… you don’t express your emotions as much as I like to. 

We have been friends for years, and I have stood by your side through it all. You are the one guy I would do absolutely anything for. I’ve watched girls walk in and out of your life, and yet I’m still here, which I can’t figure out why.

I've given you more than my heart and I'm not saying I regret it, but I regret overthinking every second of it. Wondering how you felt about all of it, about us. 

Why won’t you open up?

Why won’t you be with me?

After all these years, after making love, after it all, I thought things would be a bit different, but we took two steps back. 

You don’t want commitment and I am no exception to your rule. It took me so long to see this, but you don’t want me.

Because if you did, you’d fight for me and want to call me yours.

You would want to tell the world about us, but I’m just a secret lover who happens to be your best friend too.

I wish I was okay with being your ‘friends with benefits’.

I wish I was willing to accept that you can’t promise me a relationship, but I deserve more than this.

I want to call you mine, and for you to call me yours. 

You have my whole heart. 

I’ve waited years to love you openly and be loved by you and I just can’t wait anymore.

I'm technically single, but I always choose you and that's not fair.

As much as I love you, if you're not willing to love me, I have to let this go. 

This is a carousel that never stops turning and I’m going be sick if I don’t get off.

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Cassandra

Currently a college student at Baylor University. I love life, but that doesn't mean it always loves me back, so I write it all out. If you know me, I've probably written about you at some point.  xoxo Twitter handle: Facebook URL:

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