When you’ve had a friend whose been by your side through the good and the bad, it’s hard to fully let go. No matter how bad the situation gets, you may walk away from each other for a while, but true friends will always come back to each other.
You and I have been best friends since high school, we used to spend so much time together it was ridiculous. We have our moments of not getting along, what girls don’t? You were the one who always remained by my side through all the bullshit I was dealt.
When we had our very first fight, I remember you threatened to scrap my teeth against the ground. You’d threaten to kick my ass if you were to see me around. When we were at karaoke, we both would sneak glances at each other, and you’d sit there at first and glare, but as months went on it slowly turned into a small smile, and I used to always think we’d end up fine.
I was always right when I thought we would eventually make up, but the more we fought with each other, the more toxic our friendship would become. We had our rough patches, but you still always stood by my side.
You were there for me when I lost my niece, when our friend at the time told me not once, but twice to get over it because she wasn’t coming back. When I would cry for days on end, you would pick me up and let me stay with you when I needed to blow off steam.
You understood me in ways no one else did. You held me and comforted me when I needed it the most.
Our latest fight we had was probably one of the worst, you had made a comment on a post of mine of how I had cheated on my boyfriend. Something you knew I didn’t want public, even though him and I had worked things out, all because my best friend kissed me.
When I told you how I considered my best friend to be more of a best friend than you, I knew it pissed you off even more, because no one understood me like you, but he does.
I know you think you’ll always understand me better, but the truth is, you both understand me the same. He protects me the same way you did, especially when my panic attacks hit.
No one will ever understand our relationship, we’ve been talking to each other again, and I know it will make people mad, but you have always been one of my best friends. We aren’t back to being best friends by any means, we are just talking and being civil.
I’m not sure our friendship could ever go back to how it was, but as long as we can be civil, I’d honestly be happy with that.
Thank you for always standing by me, and making sure I’m okay, even if we fight so much.