You want me trust you….
You want me to be vulnerable…..
You want me to tear down my walls for you….
You want me to let you love me…….
But I can’t.
You promise that you won’t ever leave, but life has taught me that at some point EVERYONE leaves. The people you love and count on the most will leave. They will leave and some may come back, but not all.
Life has taught me that the only person I can truly count on is myself. No matter how broken and hurt I am, I will still be there. I will be there standing tall, all by myself.
I would love to let you in. I would love to take down these walls and trust you with my heart. But I can’t.
I can’t chance that I will let you in and then be torn apart when you leave. Why would you stay?? Why would YOU be different from everyone else?
My heart longs for that connection I could have with you. But my head pulls me back into reality. It tells me that you will leave just like all the others and then I will be left to pick up the pieces.
You could love me like no one else. You could be my happily ever after. You could be the one to prove that you aren’t like the rest….but, I just can’t.
