It's funny how someone can walk into your life and change it.
You and I met about 2 years ago, and talked for a while, then we stopped talking, but when I moved last summer I had gotten back in touch with you, and I am so glad I did.
You were always there for me through my roughest times. When I moved away from everyone I knew, I was able to vent to you, I told you about my past, about how I have depression, and so much more. You never once judged me.
I told you about how my best friend and I were fighting, and you would tell me I don't deserve to be treated that way. You were the one I could lean on. I easily replaced her with you at that time, even though you are a guy, you became important to me.
When I had a problem with my boyfriend, you gave me advice from a guys point of view. It was amazing to have because I would get frustrated with him.
You make me smile or laugh so easily, and so carefree, it's amazing to have in my life. I've dealt with a lot of drama this year, but you were the one thing I had constant out of my friendships. I am so thankful for you.
The thing is, I had developed some feelings towards you, but I think that's because you saved me so much this year, the very first time we hung out, you did an oil change on my car. You became my mechanic.
I remember when you had your wisdom teeth pulled, and I texted you crying because my tire blew at my friends house one night and I had to be back in Wisconsin the next day so you got up early to come help me fix it, even though you were supposed to rest.
Through out the year, you have done a lot of work on my car for me, so that you know I have a working vehicle that would get me home safely or get me around safely.
You are sweet, but a sarcastic a**hole, you can be a huge jerk at times, but you always look out for me and have my best interest at heart.
When I walked away from my two best friends because I couldn't handle the drama and was feeling worthless to them, you reminded me that I am not worthless, and that sometimes I just have to let go of the hurt, even if I really care about these people.
When my best friend and I started to talk again, you admitted that you were disappointed because of what I told you about our friendship, you were being my best friend and looking out for me. I appreciate it so much.
You are always there to pick me up when I'm down, you can detect my mood so easily it's scary.
I don't know how you managed to sneak your way into my heart, but if I lose you, I will literally lose a part of me, it scares me so much that you will walk away, but you prove me wrong every time, especially when I push you away because of my depression.
I even gained a new friend out of you, your cousin, who even though she is younger than us, has seriously become one of my closest friends. I know we drive you crazy together, but you love us, and you are amused by how we are.
I am so glad I've got you both in my life and that you have allowed me to have a relationship with her, because she is so much like how I used to be and how I will always be, and I love that. We can relate to each other so much as well, which is a nice thing to have.
You have been nothing but amazing to me, and I couldn't ask for a better best friend. You are seriously at the top of the list for my best friends. Thank you for being so amazing to me, and for loving me for who I am, and not who others want me to be.
You have changed my life for the better in so many ways this year, and I'll always be grateful for everything you do for me, even the little things, like hugging me or comforting me when I need it.
Thank you for being my best guy friend, and for being there through my roughest times. I love you and that will never change. You are amazing in every way, and I honestly hope I never lose you.