Yall broke up. You took him off your social media, deleted his phone number, all your old pictures, and even mailed him back his stuff so you didn’t have to see him again. You moved on with your life. Then you see him again…
It’s the first time you’ve seen him since the break-up and he’s not alone. At first you don’t even notice he’s with someone new because you feel like your heart stopped.
The first encounter is always the worst. Every bad memory comes flooding back. Every awful thing he put you through. Your chest hardens up and you feel like you can’t breathe.
He hurt you. He changed your whole being. Because of him, you changed whole demeanor about guys. Built a wall that used to never be there and guard your heart. Your new guy can lightly push you joking around and your instantly taken to that one time your ex pushed you to the ground.
You come back to reality and realize there’s a girl with him. It’s only been a few months; how can he already be with someone new?
He told you, you were the one. He begged you not to go and now he’s moved on. He’s with someone new.
You can’t help but to size her up. Compare her hair, makeup, body type, clothes, and any other thing you could think of to yourself.
Is she better than you? Make him happier? Does he treat her the same way he treated you or did he change?
You can’t help but to wonder if she worries about his anger issues. If he’s thrown a fit, threatened to hurt himself if she broke his heart. Does she have to put up with the same things you did?
They seem happy. He seems different like he’s changed. I wonder if she knows you’re the reason he’s better.
I mean you put up with him for weeks… months. You dealt with his mood swings, tried to help him grow up, and hoped you left him better than he was.
All the hours you put in. All the crap you put up with. There had to be a reason you went through that. If not for yourself, at least for his sake. To help him grow up and make him a better person.
Then you realize you shouldn’t put so much thought into this. You looked over and saw your date. He looks concerned and you snap out of it.
I mean you’ve moved on too. He changed you but you know what you deserve now. That there’s no reason for you or any other person to put up with crap like that.
He’s your past and that’s where you plan on leaving him. He can’t affect you anymore.
Besides you're totally hotter than his new girl!
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