It was 12 years ago that I found out I’d never again hear the sound of her laughter or voice, or see the smile on her face or even feel her embrace. It was 12 years ago that I found out my big sissy would not only be missing her birthday and Thanksgiving with us, but would never be coming home. She was taken from us way too soon and not a single day has passed in 12 years that I don’t miss my big sissy. We were like two peas in a pod. No one ever truly understood me and my quirks quite like she did. She was my best friend and I miss her everyday. She spent her entire life feeling unwanted and unloved and not a day goes by that my heart doesn’t break knowing she died all alone probably thinking those exact thoughts. Because of someone’s carelessness my sister died all alone on a cold bathroom floor and wasn’t found for two days.
I wanted to share with you all a poem that I wrote for my beautiful big sister who now lives among the Angels in Heaven.
Fall has come and almost gone,
I wish your face appeared with the dawn.
Twelve years since your time has come to pass,
It hurts that your life went by so fast.
Here comes my tears again,
Drenched in my pain once again.
Please wake me when November ends?
From day one I am waiting for day thirty so it will end,
It holds memories of a pain that won’t mend
My memory rests, but I can’t escape what I lost,
With a loss so deep you never forget the cost.
Wake me when November ends?!
The bond between sisters broken in two,
A world left shattered and blue.
Numb and empty knowing you’re no longer here,
This month arrives and I wish I could disappear.
Wake me when November ends?!
All this time and yet I’m still here drowning in the rain,
Every single day I can still feel the sting of my pain.
This aching hole in my heart that I can’t make whole,
All because of a stupid mistake your life was stole.
Please can someone wake me when November ends?
Hold onto your sisters because they truly are your forever friends. No one has your back like a sister does and there is no one who is a better friend.
