Being the “side chick” is never fun. It leaves you empty and filled with guilt, and shame. Guilt, because you were the reason, the guy you are secretly seeing, just cheated on his fiancé with you. And full of shame, because you know it was wrong. You can’t tell your friends or family because they will judge you for it.
But what can you do when you’re so in love with him? When you know he’s the one? He shares with you his secrets, his past, his mistakes. You know he is not happy in his current relationship, but you won’t encourage him to call it quits with his fiancé.
It must be hard for her. No matter how good or bad she is as a person, or is to him, she still has feelings. The sleepless nights she must have experienced, where he was laying in bed next to you. Nothing is worse than to be neglected right after being intimate with someone. He puts on his clothes and tells you, he needs to leave because he’s going out with his fiancé.
It’s wrong to get involved in a messy relationship, to begin with. But it’s so much harder to quit it. Deep inside you wish and hope, he’ll choose you.
The day comes, where he finally says “He wants to be with you, and that he loves you!”
He moved in, but he doesn’t seem happy. He’s depressed and feels guilty. Doubting his decision. You guys are intimate but you are not yet an exclusive couple.
You step back and give him his space. Reversed psychology, they call it. And he finally realizes that you are the one he really wants to be with. Head over heels and so in love. He’s finally yours and in reverse.
But then something happens, the first fight. And you wonder who he’s texting while he’s with you, or where he was the two nights he didn’t come home.
But you let it slide. You don’t want to put the energy out there, that what he did to his Exes, will eventually happen to you.
Crazy thoughts, will lead to crazy actions. That will push him away and in the arms of the new person, that once was you. That will understand him and comfort him, not trying to control him or judge his lifestyle.
You see them together because they are friends. Meanwhile, your relationship crumbles and their grows stronger.
You’ll never have proof, except that after you and him broke up, he’s already in a relationship with her. I guess, it’s karma and everything happens for a reason.
