The excruciating pain that you’re feeling is totally valid, so allow yourself to be with your emotions but try not to elaborate on negative thinking.
The intensity of the pain you’re feeling can only go so far. It can push and push until you feel that you can’t handle it anymore, but it’s only when you feel that you can’t possibly take it anymore that it will transform you.
You might not be aware of how this situation is truly highlighting your inner badass but in a twisted way, it is.
I know you want answers and closure because it all seems bleak and senseless. But heartache is an internal process you have to come to terms with if you truly want this situation to work in your favor. And it will trust that it will.