He Never Loved Me Back
“Sometimes, the bravest thing you can do is to see how far you’ve come and never look back.”
At first when you left me, all I did was think about the things I was losing.
All our happy memories flooded my mind and all the times I was left crying on the shower floor or waiting by my phone for you to contact me were suddenly forgotten about. I felt physcially sick for quite some time knowing you were starting a whole new chapter in your life without me.
I was so blinded by my feelings for you that I didn’t believe that you were bad for me. And I didn’t believe our break up was a good change. I truly thought losing you was something I would never get over. And so I kept fighting for you until one day I woke up and realized it was time to start fighting to let you go.
Now I believe our break up was a blessing.
I have gained so much since the day you left. And I thank you for making me realize my self-worth and now I’ve learned not to accept any less than I deserve from a man ever again. I didn’t know until recently that it was possible to be happier without you, than I ever was with you.
I spent so long wondering what I did wrong but I see now that I was never the problem, it was you. You were incapable of love. I always wanted you to be a good man for me but now I know that wasn’t possible when you couldn’t even be a good man for yourself.
You told me many times that you didn’t have a heart and I should believed you and ran for the hills.
When I look back these days, the only memories that come rushing back are the bad ones. I used to torture myself when I thought about another woman replacing me but now I wish the next all the luck in the world because she’ll need it if you plan on treating her the same way you treated me.