“I knew right away that you were it for me. There were no reservations or second thoughts. I saw you and in an instant knew in my bones, my soul had known your soul lifetimes ago.” Beau Taplin
Never in my life did I ever think that I’d meet someone that I would click with from the start. From the moment that I met you something in my gut told me that you were different.
You were my person. You were the reason why I had to go through what I went through. You were the prize at the finish line of an incredibly painful race.
From the start you reminded me of what it was like to feel again, you reminded me of my love for music and photography. You got my weird and joined in on it without a single second of hesitation. You don’t come across that often.
To be completely honest though, I didn’t want to fall. I didn’t want to get attached. I didn’t want to believe that it was you that I’d been waiting on for so long. I was terrified to get hurt again. But with every moment I got to spend with you I let my guard down.
I let myself be vulnerable to you. I felt something that I didn’t think I’d ever be able to feel again, and it was the happiest I’d been in a really long time.
I think that’s where I went wrong. I let you in too quickly. I scared you, and you ran.
You see, I have a rule that I keep everyone at arm’s length because they always seem to leave just as I let them in. But I broke my rule for you, I let you in and you proved to me why no one gets close to me.
You broke my heart and I don’t even know where to go from here. My soul and your soul, I still believe are old friends.
My gut is never wrong; I still think that you’re different. I still think that you and I belong together. I don’t think you meant to hurt me.
I think you started to feel what I felt and it scared you as much as it scared me. But you took your hobby to a whole other level and ran far and fast.
My hope is that one day our paths will cross again, and I hope that this time you’ll have the courage to stay.