We Fell In And We Fell Out

And now I am realizing how hugely, wrongly, recklessly stupid it was of me to think that we were ever going to be alright in the end. It simply isn’t possible to love so deeply as I did then lose it all at once as I did and walk away completely unscathed.

My First Love

For as long as I live you are forever going to exist within my little world in the role of the very first person I was ever in love with. And I loved being in love with you. And I love that I loved you.

However, you’re also always going to covet the role of the very first person to fully and truly break my heart. And I won’t regret that, either.

Trust Your Choices, You Made Them

I believe that every single choice you make in your life will in- at the very least- some small way irrevocably alter the path of your life. Sometimes it’s really easy to wonder what that reason is- to not be able to see where the hurting will ever give way to something less, but that doesn’t mean that you can abandon it.

You need to stay and breathe and trust that you’ll always end up in a place where you are meant to be. Although, I don’t believe that there is any one place, nor any one person you’re meant to end up with or as; I believe there are millions- and no single one is any more of less correct than the others.

Every day we make choices that grant us the capability to flirt with the possibilities of these other lives, so I believe some other me never got the chance to be in love with you. Contritely, I believe some other me got the chance to stay in love with you. My heart is both warmed and broken in its own way for those other me’s and those other you’s that we did and did not become because of one another.