The Honest Truth, was that I loved you

The honest truth was that I loved you but I left you anyway. You were there for me when I really needed you, even if it was wrong at the time. Even though you were my “dirty little secret” what you helped me through never meant more to me. But the guilt that I felt for how things came about was too much for me to carry.

The brokenness, trauma and fear from my past relationship stopped me from loving you to your full protentional. I’m finally out of that relationship for good, and I tried to explain it to you. Why I did what I did. I kept you in secret always, not because I wanted to, because I was afraid he would find out, I was so afraid of what he would do. Sounds pathetic, I know, but that’s how real it was for me.