But you don’t need a safety net. As scary as it is to rely on only yourself, I’m confident you won’t even fall in the first place.
One of the hardest things about letting go of an almost relationship is that question of If I walk away, did I waste my time with them? You didn’t though. With every relationship you have in life (even the unhealthy ones), you learn from it and it makes you better.
One of the harder things to accept about these types of relationships is if he wanted to date you, he would have already. The truth is, he doesn’t.
That doesn’t mean you’re the flawed one. He is for not seeing what’s right in front of him. And you listen to excuses of why you never dated in the past or that he’s not ready yet. You have to understand that all those things are… are excuses.
You don’t deserve that. You don’t deserve crying yourself to sleep at night. You don’t deserve someone coming in and out of your life as they please. You don’t deserve the broken promises and bits and pieces of something right.