Love is hard. You can fall in love a million and one times, and for a million and one different reasons but no matter what, love only works once. It’s when you find your person that everything falls into place because when that happens, you can make it through anything together.
She thought you were her person because when she looked at you she could see her future when you hugged her she felt at home, and when you kissed her she felt what she’d been missing out with everyone else…she felt loved.
She was so willing to bet on you that she just dove head first into this. She gave you her heart without skipping a beat. She let go of any doubt and just simply let every ounce of her fall into you.
Because when it’s love and you’re so sure it’s the real deal, you don’t act logically and calculate every move. It’s not supposed to make sense, it’s just supposed to work as if it was always meant to be.
So when she thought you were it, she was sure you would catch her, and everything would fall into place. But it didn’t.
You didn’t catch her and nothing fell into place…it just fell apart faster than she could prepare herself for.
It’s a painful break to the heart to realize someone would rather watch you fall than catch you. It’s hard to swallow that rejection especially when you’ll never know why they didn’t want to commit to a love this big.
But for her, she could live with knowing you’d rather walk away than give this a real try. She could accept that you were a coward that couldn’t man up and handle this in a less devastating way.
What she couldn’t handle was the fact that she so strongly believed you were it, that you shared the same love and were on the same page. But, you were never committed to this.
She gave you all of her and only ever asked for the true, authentic you in return. Instead, you fed her with shallow gestures of a love from a perfect man, who’d rather pull on her heartstrings than have her heart.
Playing games, and only halfway committing to love is never going to work. It’s never going to be enough for a person who deserves more and knows what real love could be.
And she may have been a temporary game to you, but she knows she’ll be a forever love for someone else. It may have taken some time but she now sees you were just one of the millions and not the one in a million.
