I was innocence. I was the smile from a stranger but to you — I was new prey. You made me feel like I was important. I see the truth now. You did everything in your power to make it seem that way.
You kept me holding on with your lies so much so that I accepted it as the truth.
You let me into your life and you gave me this hope that someday, I would be apart of it.
So I attached to the idea of who I thought you were. Meanwhile, I changed into who you wanted me to become. So much to the point where I became so unrecognizable.
I don’t blame you and I don’t blame me for what we created. We satisfied each other desires unable to realize the damage we were inflicting.
We both had an illness no one could cure: I was starving faithful and you were satisfied unstable.
We wanted to feel ecstasy and the only heaven we were ever sent to was in the bedroom…
I gave you every inch of my body. You took it. You kept taking… every piece of it.
Maybe you knew it was wrong but so did I — the problem is I never let it stop.
I kept you with my body… and you kept me with your lies.
When I wasn’t with you I was desperate for the high you gave me. So I stayed to feel a little more each and every time. When it came to the point where I begged to feel it.
When we touched it went away. The confusion. The stress. The anger. The sadness. I felt human again. I felt important. I felt pure and so did you.
To both of us, it felt so right it didn’t make sense why it was wrong.
Yet, I wanted something more and you wanted something less.
I gave you my body at the expense of your lies but It felt like I gave you my life and you held me at knifepoint.
The truth is that we both could never be able to satisfy what either of us needed…
We could never understand each other because we weren’t meant for one another.
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