A Brutally Honest Letter To The Asshole Ex.

Dear Ex,

I’ve had so many mixed feelings in regards to writing this letter. To start off, I want to say that I hope that you’re not as shitty now as you were before, because let’s face it, you were VERY shitty.

 

But I loved you anyways.

We had good times and had a great connection. Or, I thought we did. Even though I loved you, you chose to break my heart and almost break my spirit.

I was a damn good girlfriend to you. I did everything you wanted and then some. I went out of my way, multiple times to make sure that you were happy, and that was never good enough. I spent so much time, effort and money on you, but you didn’t seem to care. Instead of appreciating what you had, you chose to pick fights with me about anything and everything, call me names, belittle me, lie to me, cheat on me, alienate me, and so many other things….and I stupidly let you.

There are so many times when I look back on our relationship…

and want to punch myself in the face for staying with you as long as I did. I don’t look back and think of all of our “wonderful” times, because they’re only plagued with horrible times right after. Things between us never stayed good for long.

To be honest, there were other guys that took interest in me, but I chose to turn them down; for you. They showed me more respect in the small amount of time we talked, than you ever did in our entire relationship. Looking back now, I never should have gone out with your sorry ass, especially when I saw those red flags.

 

To the Girl Fighting to Conceal Her Broken Heart, You’ll Get Through This

She wakes up in the morning, showers, does her hair, puts on her makeup (even when the tears will wash it away before work), slaps on her smile and walks out the door. She looks to the outside world as though she has everything under control. Nobody ever knows when she’s hurting because she has become so good at hiding it.

Truth is, it took 45 minutes to get out of bed this morning.

She averaged about 4 hours of sleep between checking her phone every hour, crying, thinking and wondering if things would ever change. She only put on the makeup to hide the hideous bags under her eyes from drowning her sorrows in a little bit too much Jack D last night. Her smile is about as fake as the “I’m so happy” status she posted on Facebook last night.

She’s broken inside. And why shouldn’t she be? She wasted so much time on one guy for him to be exactly what everyone says he would be. She feels stupid, naive, hurt, pissed, worthless. Every memory races through her head every time she has a minute to think. Every time he said he wanted her. Every time he promised he wouldn’t leave. Every text, every call, every little detail. Right down to how he would smile and stare at her when he thought she didn’t notice.

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