“I lied. I’m not out of this relationship, I’m in. I’m so in it’s humiliating because here I am begging…You choice it’s simple. Her or me. And I’m sure she’s great. But Derek, I love you, in a really big way. I pretend to like your taste of music.. I let you eat the last piece of cheesecake. I’ll hold a radio over my head outside your window, in an unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. Pick me. Choose me. Love me.” – Grey’s Anatomy

Pick me.

I don’t want someone who doesn’t want me. But, I have this feeling there is still something there. And if there is, I don’t want to give up on you or us.  I’ve never been one to beg or plead. Attention isn’t something I have ever had to seek, in others. I’m not one to try too hard.  I’ve always believed, if I have to try that hard, it’s the other person, that probably isn’t worth it.

But with you, every rule in the book doesn’t apply. I’ve completely lost myself to all of this. I don’t care how much of a fool I appear to be. I don’t care if you think I’m crazy. Because you’re right, I’m crazy about you.

So I ask you to stop everything else with anyone, who might be in the picture. I ask you to pick me. Do it today. And I will pick you every day, from this day forward. Because you have never been a choice, but rather the only thing, that has ever made sense in my life. I didn’t have to pick you. My heart did.

So I’m standing here before you, begging and pleading to pick me because I don’t want to know what a life without you, is even like.

Choose me.

We all make choices in life, some little choices impact things here and there. But then there are those big choices, like choosing which road to go down. And it is the course you choose, that impacts your future and your life forever. Some choices are easy, others come bearing pain because eventually, someone prevails in the choice you have made. I hate that someone will get hurt in this, but I hate more that it could be me.

I’m asking you to choose me. And I may sound desperate. In fact, I know I do. But here I am putting it all on the line and holding nothing back. I want you and only you. I want us. Choose us today and forever.

Because I’ve only ever envisioned a future with you. And of the things that don’t scare me about my future, is if you are standing beside me.

Love me.

While our heart chooses who we love, we make the choice to stay in love, every day. Because love doesn’t just happen, but you work to keep that flame alive.

I’ve never questioned you, I’ve never questioned my love for you. I’ve only ever wanted you because you just seem to make so much sense in my life. I want you. I want you more than anyone. And if it’s not us in the end, I don’t know if I’ll be okay. Because I’ve only ever wanted us to make it. I just can’t seem to accept a story where it isn’t us in the end.

I know you are conflicted and it won’t be easy. The best things in life never are. But if you choose me, I’ll make it as easy as I can. If you choose me, I promise to love you, every day.

It’s only ever been you. And I have this feeling it’s always going to be. We always find our way back to each other, so instead of fighting it, I’m asking you to fearfully take my hand, as I do yours, and let’s see where this thing can take us.

Let’s see if we have it in us, to be that story people write. I want us to be the example others want to follow. Let us be that couple that makes everyone gag. Let’s live in our own little world, where the only thing that matters is each other. Because you are the only thing that has ever mattered in my world.

I want you. Not just want. I need you. Because the only thing that has ever made sense in my life has been you.

I want us to make it. And I pray we do. So here I am standing in front of you, playing every card I have, asking you to be mine. Now and forever.

“It’s not hard. It’s painful. You know what to do. If you didn’t you wouldn’t be in so much pain.” -Grey’s Anatomy