Grandma Happy Birthday in Heaven, you are so missed! 

It’s these days, the days you should be here that make losing you that much harder. Three years how has it been three years you have been gone. Life just don’t seem quite as good now that you aren’t here. Every major mile stone feels like there is something missing. A piece that we cannot get back. 

So today, on your third birthday in heaven I sit here, by your head stone. I know you aren’t here. It’s just the last place that we where with you. I have my coffee and I’m just staring at the sky. Words are mostly lost so I write. 

Days like today are the hardest. Your memory is so alive, yet everything feels different. There is an emptiness in days like today. Days when I wish I could be sitting at your feet while you play with my hair. While the cake is baking in the oven. I wish we could go to your favorite restaurant together, and come home to sing happy birthday. 

I pass the card isle at the store and think, I’ll never get to buy you a card again. I stand there for a few minutes looking at all the cards marked “Grandma” wishing I could see the smile on your face as you open it up. Seeing the tears in your eyes because you are so touched by it. Grandma, although these memories will stay with me forever, I long for just one more time. 

I reach for my phone to call you and tell you all about my day. Even though it’s been three years now. I think about our conversations. How when I would have a hard day I could here you say “stay strong, you can do this.” I look down at my wrist where it’s tattooed on me. 

It’s days like today when celebrating you makes my heart ache. When the little things in life feel so empty. When I just wish for one more day, even one more minute to see your smile. 

Happy Heavenly Birthday. Keep watching over us! We still need you. 

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To My Grandma in Heaven, Your Memory Will Forever Live in My Heart

Missing Grandma

I can’t even begin to explain how much I miss you, grandma. And how much I wish I could have you by my side to tell you how much I truly love you and appreciated you in my life. I wish I could turn back time to spend more time with you but I can’t. There is absolutely nothing I can say to make up for all the time I lost with you. All the times I didn’t answer your phone call or didn’t go and see you.

 

No excuses

There is no excuse for why I dropped you once I got older except the fact that I was dumb and didn’t realize what I was doing. Back then I couldn’t see the importance that you had in my life. I couldn’t truly appreciate how lucky I was to have an amazing grandma like you. And I regret that.

 

30 Things You Never Thanked Your Grandma for

A grandma truly has a heart of gold. She’s one of the biggest inspirations in your life by just being herself. The one person you know you can to turn to who keeps you grounded when life gets messy and chaotic. And just for that you owe her a few thousand thank you’s.

She gives the best hugs.

And always knows just what to say to make things better.

You can always count on her to be there for you, even in the worst of times.

She gives you a unique perspective on life.

And her advice is genuine and wise.

She taught you how to have self-respect just from leading by example.

She’s one of your biggest fans.

And she’s the greatest listener.

She always makes you feel special and good about yourself.

 A grandma teaches you to be brave even when you’re scared.

And strong when you feel weak.

 Because she’s one of the strongest women you know.

 She taught you how to speak your mind when necessary and to stand up for what’s right.

Her voice and contagious laughter will always lift your spirits.

She is the classiest woman.

Her stories are one of a kind.

 She told you were beautiful even when you didn’t feel like it.

 A grandma never forgets your birthday.

  If you’re ever feeling sick or in danger, she will take care of you.

Let’s be honest, you’ve never left your grandma’s house hungry or empty-handed.

 Her cooking is absolutely delicious.

To My Grandma I Miss with My Whole Heart, You Really Were the Best

I’m terrified that the memories I have of you will one day become blurry. Mom has the video tapes from when I was little and thankfully you were on a few.

 

I remember what you looked like, but your voice, I hate to say I don’t remember it.

 

You were the best grandma I could have asked for.

 

I remember being excited to come see you and I loved spending the nights at your house. The junk food we would eat. The card games we used to play. The trips to the park right down the street we used to play at.

 

Having to be quiet while you watched The 700 Club, but as soon as it was over, your attention was focused on us. Playing downstairs in the basement.

 

Helping to do your housework, yet never willingly helping my mom at home.

 

I remember being really little and you’d sit on the floor and play with my horses for what felt like hours at the time.

I used to love having all my cousins over and running around your yard and hopping the chain link fence, having hula hoop competitions.

 

All the home made cakes you used to make for our birthdays.

 

I feel like I didn’t get to spend enough time with you.

 

I know it was your time to leave and at the time I was okay with that. I still am.

 

Just every now and again, especially lately, I realize how much you are missing out on.

 

I know you’d be here if you could, so I’ll just hope you look down and smile.

 

But honestly, I would rather have the ten years I did with you than to have never had those ten years at all.

Grandma, Missing You Is My Heart’s Way of Reminding Me How Much I Love You

You weren’t just my grandma, you were also my best friend. All the fun moments that we spent together will forever make me smile when I am having a bad day. When I think of you often, I am thinking of what advice you would give me, would you be proud of me?

I was supposed to have more time with you. You were supposed to be at my graduation, you were supposed to be at my wedding, and see you great grandchildren. I was supposed to get thousands of laughs with you.

When I was told you were gone, my  back slammed against a wall and I let out a huge gasp for breath. I fell to the ground I let out a scream.

My happiness vanished. I didn’t want to get out of bed, I didn’t want to hang out with friends. I wanted to lie in bed feeling the weight of guilt for not being there for you when you took your last breath.

20 Things You Only Understand If You Love Spending Time Alone

There are two kinds of people in this world—those who love to be surrounded by people all of the time, whether they are out, home, or on the go, and those who love being alone in their silence, solitude, and bed. Not to say that one person is better than the other, but they are total polar opposites. Some people love human contact, others despise it. And, there are just somethings you totally understand if you’re a “me, myself, and I” person.

1. Being alone means there is absolutely zero judgment at all. Zero. None. Negative none.

2. You can walk around without pants on and not have to worry about a damn thing.

3. You can eat whatever you want, at any time of day, and have no one to tell you otherwise. Ice cream for breakfast? Bring on the damn sprinkles.

4. You have a list of excuses that you run through on a regular basis to get out of plans with people you really don’t want to do—like, your mom needs help moving, your sister needs you to babysit the kids, your super is coming to fix the kitchen sink.

5. Ordering food for one is way cheaper than ordering for two-three and having to figure out how to split the Seamless/Postmates bill.

6. You know vegging out on the couch with your show to binge watch with some wine is way better than having to go to a club and rub up against sweaty and annoying strangers who keep touching you without your permission.

7. There is no pleasure quite like lighting a candle in your bedroom and snuggling under the covers with a good book.

8. Relationships are hard to get into because your personal time is more precious than anything else you can imagine.

9. And, the worst thing you can deal with is dating someone who wants to be with you or see you on an everyday basis. No thank you.

10. You don’t understand why people feel the need to text all day, every day. Having time away from the rest of the world is special.

11. People think that you’re a weirdo or a loner because you’re not always out doing something with other people.

12. But, in reality, you are constantly doing something—just solo.

13. Traveling alone is one of your all-time dreams. And, you have no problem going to a new country all by yourself.

14. You think that people who need to go with someone everywhere (including running errands, or going to the hair salon, or even traveling) are crazy and dependent.

15. People always say you’re the most independent person they’ve ever met.

16. You always people-watch and study body language when you’re out, thinking about their stories and where they come from.

17. You don’t understand why people hate eating by themselves.

18. People never worry about you if they haven’t heard from you in a while because they know you’re always around, just under the radar.

19. The only person you’d ever consider spending your life with is someone who is just as independent as you are because you cannot imagine having to do everything with someone else tied to your side all of the time.

20. You wouldn’t trade your alone time in for anything in the world—except, maybe, a million dollars.

Woman Shares The Crazy Story Of Her First Tinder Date To A Crematorium

When you go on a first date with someone you meet online, things can go really well or really poorly. You never know what you’re in for when you’re going out with someone you truly know nothing about. Most of the time, people will discuss that there was just no “spark,” or no “connection,” between them and their date—and, it’s not really about the place they go to. Except, one woman, who reported that she went on the wildest and crazy first date with a Tinder match and, I’m gasping for air over this story.

Twitter user @itssraych shared the story of her friend, Bridget, after she was complaining about a Tinder date she had gone on. Bridget said she had one to top it and, yeah, she really did.

Bridget said that her Tinder date had told her to wear a “black dress” for their surprise first date. But, it wasn’t to a restaurant or a movie—they went to a crematorium.

And, it wasn’t just a random day there, it was his grandmother’s funeral.

She felt bad leaving, so she stayed for the service.

She also found out that he and his girlfriend had broken up only a few weeks before, and he needed a “filler” for the funeral.

And, Twitter couldn’t breathe.

https://twitter.com/Jillbles/status/1067877072209698816

https://twitter.com/JBRylah/status/1067487337360183296

Yes Sinny, I totally agree.

Importance Of Sewing Machine

My love of sewing began when I was very young.  My first inspiration was a beautiful quilt my Grandma had draped on the back of her couch.  She’d sewn it square-by-square over several years, and finally completed it when she retired.  I’ve always been a crafty girl, so one year for my birthday Grandma took me to the hobby store.

After wandering the aisles, I found a Dog Face sewing kit, complete with furry ears, sad eyes and a variety of plastic tongues/noses.  It came with a giant plastic needle, yarn and circular sheeting that had holes in it designed to allow you to sew the facial features onto the circular background.  I had hours of fun creating unusual pet expressions with this kit.  A month or so later, Grandma and I went back to the hobby store.

This time I picked out a quilt set that was essentially giant felt rectangles that required you to cut the edges into strips and then tie together.  This took some time to complete, but when I did, I proudly displayed it on the back of our couch, just like Grandma.

Soon thereafter, Grandma asked me if I wanted to help her make a quilt.  She described the time-consuming process of creating the piece one square at a time and then sewing them all together.  I was thrilled!  We went to the neighborhood fabric store and I picked out all kinds of pretty floral remnants to begin the process.

When we got home I got the scissors and prepared to cut the edges into strips. “Ohh no, we’re sewing this,” she said. Then my Grandpa carried a big white plastic case into the room.  “What’s that?” I asked.  “A sewing machine,” he answered.  Now, I had never seen a sewing machine so when Grandma took the cover off I didn’t know what to expect.

She opened a side compartment and took out a spool of yellow thread and put it on a little post on the top of the machine.  Then she took the loose end of the thread and weaved it through a needle at the bottom of the machine.  As I watched in anticipation, she plugged it in.  “OK, now give me two pieces of your fabric.”  I did.

She put the two pieces next to each other with the edges overlapping, snapped a little lever down to keep them in place and said, “Now watch this.”  There was a foot pedal on the floor and when she pushed it the needle went up and down.  She then slowly advanced the fabric squares as the yellow thread made a clean straight line.

She released the fabric, cut the string and handed the sewn together pieces to me. “This was just a practice run to show you how it’s done.”  I had never seen this process before and thought it was the coolest thing ever!  Every weekend for the next several months Grandma and I worked on the quilt.

We went back to the fabric store and bought some solid color material remnants to piece in with the floral prints, and a big piece of pink flannel to use as the backing.  We worked long and hard on this, and that’s where my love of sewing progressed from giant plastic needles and dog faces to the art of quilting using a sewing machine.

The next year my Grandma gave me her sewing machine for my birthday.  She taught me how to thread it and gave me her case of bobbins and more thread and buttons than I could ever dream of using.  My mom took me to the fabric store and we bought a variety of different materials and embellishments.  I then set up shop on the dining room table.

My first projects were mostly pillowcases.  Grandma had taught me about turning things inside-out so the seams would be hidden, and since it was a pillowcase there would be an open end so I wouldn’t have to hand-sew anything.  I remember some fabric we bought had a cloud/raindrop pattern on it.  One of the embellishments I bought was a red umbrella.

This had to be hand sewn, and it was tough!  Grandma showed me how to thread the needle, knot the end and how to make sure my stitches were even and looked pretty.  When it was done, I was super proud of this item.  I used it for years, but it finally became so thread-barren that we had to retire it.  I’ve made dozens of pillowcases since then, but it was my first and will always be my favorite.

As I got older I moved on to clothing.  I could sew hems on my sewing machine and hand-sew missing buttons.  Then one year I wanted to be the StayPuft Marshmallow Man (from Ghostbusters) for Halloween, but couldn’t find a ready-made costume.  No worries; my Grandma and I created one out of an old white sheet (and lots of padding underneath J).

Over the years I’ve done a lot of community theatre, and in this arena, my sewing skills are invaluable.  Costuming for theatre is usually taking ready-made items and re-purposing them to match the character requirements.

Adding panels, petticoats, hemming/lengthening can be a very difficult task, especially if your cast list is long, and only two people know how to use the sewing machine.  It takes a team to complete the process, and the show directors are always thankful to have an actor who can double as a customer.

Over the years, I’ve created some of my own pieces and made simple repairs on my family member’s clothing.  This saves money since you don’t have to buy a new dress if strap breaks, and refurbishing items can make a unique fashion statement without having to spend a lot of money at the mall.  I love my sewing machine and will continue to use it always.  Hopefully, I’ll have the opportunity to teach my own child to sew someday.

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