If You Feel Like It’s Impossible To Keep It Together, Read This

It feels like you’re struggling to keep your head above water. Like the world is crashing around you and at any moment it could swallow you whole. When you feel like you don’t belong when no one understands you and everything you say feels burdensome.

It’s the moments you don’t think you understand yourself. That instant when giving up seems easier than holding on.

You have to try and you have to keep going.

I promise you the waves you feel around you are going to subside. The water is going to calm. All you have to do is try, that’s all that can be asked of you.

Days come where you do your best and fake a smile, look enthused to be out and about with your friends. You don’t’ really want to be there, you love your friends and making sure they’re happy turns out being a priority. Instead of speaking up you silently suffer.

You feel like it’s better to be quiet than be honest and tell someone that you’re really not okay.

Admitting out loud that something is wrong makes you feel weak, vulnerable and small. That is far from the truth.

Admitting that you’re not okay makes you strong. You have to realize you are not alone. It’s better to let it out then let all the pain and emotions build up inside you. The tears that streak your pillows at night have got to dry up eventually.

Remember you’re not alone. I have moments of weakness, moments of struggle and thoughts of not understanding why. There are days when you wake up and you just don’t feel that great, you can’t explain why you feel the way you do but you don’t feel right. There are times where you’re pessimistic, overrun with your own thoughts and unable to look at the bright optimistic side of life.

You have to stop beating yourself up. You have to stop comparing yourself to others and thinking of all the ways things should be versus how they are now.

You have to forgive yourself.

Apologize to yourself, let go of the things you can’t control, find peace with the past and make room for the future. Things are not always going to go how you had thought they would have; life doesn’t always go as planned.

In fact, it rarely does.

It’s okay to let it go.

There’s a phrase that I want you to remember, after a storm, there is always a rainbow. Eventually, everything has to calm eventually.

You are strong enough to get through whatever is troubling you. You have people you can turn to even when you don’t think you do. Hold tight to the friends that will listen whenever you need them no matter what.

Count to ten and take a deep breath.

Nothing is impossible.

You can and will make it through whatever is troubling you.

Each time you don’t give up you’re already winning.

So go ahead and keep trying, because eventually it will all make sense and you’ll put yourself back together.

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15 Truths Of The Girl Who’s Hit Rock Bottom

Life sucks more often than it doesn’t these days. You feel like you’re stuck in a deep hole that you can’t get out of, and no one can help you.

The sky is raining cat piss and you can’t afford an umbrella because it’s either that or no pizza, but you’re learning about yourself—and life, more now than ever before, so you’re not letting it get to you.

In a way, you’re proud of your home you’ve built in rock bottom.

In an attempt to shop for groceries like an adult, you end up getting a frozen pizza.
You grew impatient waiting so you took it out early, and ate it alone in your bed in one sitting, even though it was partly still cold.
Your card gets declined at least once a week. And usually when you’re about to purchase something essential, like tampons or coffee.
For every day you have more than one meal a day, you have to skip one in the coming days.
You leave the house without a bra more often than you leave the house wearing a bra.
It rains every time you go outside without an umbrella, even if rain wasn’t in the forecast. And when it rains, it pours.
You bought shoes knowing that it would overdraft your account.
After reading all of the drunk texts you sent your ex, you smile to yourself because you’re actually pretty proud of the insults that drunk-you came up with.
You don’t ask anyone for advice anymore. Not your mom, not your best friend, no one. You rely on yourself to get through this because you don’t get disappointed in yourself for not taking the advice you prescribe.
You identify with Kristin Wiig’s character in Bridesmaids.
At this point, your wardrobe is pretty much exclusively sweatpants, all of which have holes in the butt and/or crotch.
It takes you three to five hours to get out of bed every day. Because your best friend’s dad’s Netflix account is always there for you.
You ate an entire plate of nachos on your last date, and he admitted he kind of thought you were going to share it.
Since you’re always too tired to do laundry, you’re wearing your underwear inside out. And will until all of those are dirty—on both sides.
When that happens, you’ll probably just buy new underwear, which will probably overdraft your account. Whatever, everything is gonna be ok. Not today. Probably not tomorrow. Maybe not any day soon. But someday.

And once you kick rock bottom’s ass, you’ll be on top of the world. One day, you’ll laugh about your dark days in a walk-in closet filled with shoes and all of the puppies.

63 Quotes For When You’re Beyond Over People’s Bullshit

We’ve all dealt with it. Finding yourself sucked into the most pointless of all pointless drama and you’re finally fed up. You can’t just sit there any longer listening to them bitch and complain and gossip – instead of being the bigger people and resolving it or moving on.

You’re tired of the negativity and being associated with it all.

1. “Weak people revenge. Strong people forgive. Intelligent people ignore.”

2. “I’m not distant. I’m just consistent at minding my own business.”

3. “I refuse to entertain negativity. Life is too big and time is too short to get caught up in empty drama.”

4. “I’ll have a big slice of life, but hold the drama please.”

5. “People who have no life always start drama in yours.”

6. “If you bring nothing but drama to the table, don’t be surprised if everyone gets up and leaves.”

7. “Life becomes so much better when you decide not to care. Just live for the moment,” keep a journal and use essay writing sites like buyessayclub to help express yourself.

8. “Drama does not just walk into your life. Either you create if, invite it or associate with it.”

9. “Don’t let anyone drain you of your happiness today. Be drama free. Rise above the petty stuff.”

10. “Sometimes ‘I’m single’ means ‘I’m drama free, less stressed and I refuse to settle for less.’”

11. “Sometimes you have to unfollow people in real life.”

12. “Negative people need drama like oxygen. Stay positive – it will literally take their breath away.”

13. “You can’t keep a clean reputation hanging out with messy people.”

14. “I love the ones who are in my life and make it amazing. And I thank the ones who left my life and made it even more fantastic.”

15. “There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short to be anything but happy.”

16. “Just because some people are fueled by drama doesn’t mean you have to attend the performance.”

17. “A private life is a happy life.”

18. “I distance myself from bullshit.”

19. “Be wise enough to walk away from all the nonsense around you.”

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Before You Fall For The Girl Who’s Been Through A Lot, Know This

She’ll break down your ego, call out your bullshit and expose every part of your soul. She won’t be like anyone you’ve ever met. You’re going to be forever changed in the most meaningful of ways.

She’s not going to hold back for the sake of slow playing this. When she wants to make herself and her opinions known, she will. And when she needs time to recharge, she won’t think twice about giving herself some alone time.

There is no filter with her- she’ll show you every bit of her.

You see, she’s never needed anyone to tell her who she has to be or who she should be, and she’s not going to start now. When no one else wanted to, she took the time to learn who she really is, and now she embraces every single part of it. It may seem like a challenge trying to figure her out, but she’ll love you deeper than someone who’s just one-sided.

And for her, the challenge will be letting you love her.

It’s not easy for someone who is so used to being her own person to just give that role to you. She’s going to question it, doubt it and maybe even fight it – but that’s just her slowly trusting you.

She’s built an outer shell that’s made her an independent, inscrutable, take no shit kind of girl.

But at the core of her is just a big-hearted girl capable of an extraordinary love but afraid of giving a piece of her heart to someone who will leave with it. It’s happened before so rather than be afraid of love, she’s learned to love herself.

Every time you think you’ve figured her out, you’ll hit another one of the walls guarding her heart.

It will be the most defeating feeling, but try to remember she’s trying just as hard as you are. She wasn’t always this way, but when you’re used to being let down, you’re forced to put a shield up.

Logically she’ll get that her past, her pain, and her broken heart have made her the girl you love today but emotionally she’ll resist letting herself be that vulnerable. It’s just too overwhelming for her to share that with you because she’s already been broken once before.

There’s only a certain number of times someone can break before there’s nothing left.

She’ll be broken and guarded, but she’ll be the most important person you’ll ever fall in love with. Because it will take work and effort but the moment she gives you her heart – it will be worth everything. She’ll be used to only living for her, the way she wants to but she wants to build a life with someone else where she can share life’s burdens and joys. So when she feels like she’s met the person for her- she’ll want them to choose her.

So when you really get to know her- each and every layer- you’ll feel like you’re meant to choose her. Don’t ever forget that feeling, because it won’t always be easy but she’ll make up for it with her love for you.

Read This If You Have No Idea What’s Next

The Unpredictability Of Life

First of all, congratulations. Not knowing what’s next means you’re actually doing a lot better than most people who do know.

Because here is the thing about having a set on a stone plan: it is a crutch that people use all the time: I’m not happy, but I’ve completed some checklist for life, so that means I’m successful, right?

You don’t see it now, but that feeling of not knowing and feeling lost, is special. So many like to think they have figured it out. And maybe through the eyes of someone who also took the proper path, they have. They have everything right on paper. They went to University right after high school even though they didn’t want to, chose a job right after graduating even though they disliked their program. Stayed at their job even though they hated it. Dated someone and eventually settled with them because being alone is worse. They took the next step, and the next step, and the next step thinking, well, this is what I have to do.

But at least it looks good on paper, right? At least at a dinner party, they can say they completed all the things they’re supposed to, because, that’s success right? At least they can fulfill someone else’s idea of life, what is expected, what is right, all the while never stopping to think, who the hell am I doing this for? They don’t know, they just know they have to do it. Every day they put so much pressure on themselves and then one day wake up depressed and don’t know why.

But they must keep going, they must fulfill the next checklist, because of appearances. Because of appearances. Their need to keep up appearances is killing them. They think appearances means something. They think fulfilling all these expected milestones means success, power. But it makes everything so limited. It restrains them from actually living, from figuring out what they actually desire. Never mind actually feeling happy, they don’t even understand what happiness feels like anymore because they have signed themselves up for someone else’s idea of how their life should be.

But, it looks good on paper, right? It sounds good in a conversation. It gives so many a temporary satisfaction of inadvertently saying they have it all figured out. But here is the thing about happiness: you are never going to find it without first being a little lost. You are never going to find it by limiting yourself with the principle that you have to do this or that, finish school by this time, get married all by this age, live comfortably by that age. You will never find it by having it all figured out.

Having someone else think and decide for you is so much easier than experiencing the sharp pains of self-discovery. You’ve taken the harder road. The road not planned out for you. The *gasp* road that’s unknown. If you don’t understand how special that is, understand it now. You have an opportunity to create a life that you actually want to live. Fuck good on paper. Forget having everything figured out.

Forget settling. Take off – to foreign places, countries far-away. Nights watching the stars on the Vaadhoo Island in the Maldives, days swimming in crystal clear blues and greens in the Whitsunday Island in Australia. Scuba diving in The Great Blue Hole in Belize. Festivals in Nepal, Boryeong, Buñol, Rio. Strap on a backpack, head to foreign landscapes, get lost, figure it out on the way. Have adventures that make ridiculous stories that you’ll remember forever. And you don’t have to take off to have adventures – some of the most fulfilling experiences are already in your proximity. Take the class you’ve always wanted to take, the little risks that you’re too afraid to make.

Because your life is filled with opportunities and you’re already so much further along than most people – you don’t know what’s next. You don’t have everything planned out. You know there’s something more and have opened yourself up to all the possibilities that this world has to offer – you have given yourself time, the time to figure out what inspires you. This is so rare. It’s brave. And I promise you, it will pay off.

Right now, you have no idea what’s next. And even though you don’t see it now, it’s the best place you can ever be. So stop comparing yourself to those who have taken a safer route. You are meant for something extraordinary.