I Deserve To Be A Priority

Love isn’t a game, and I am not your doll. You can’t just play with my heart.

In the past, I was always the girl you could count on. No matter the time or day I would answer your every text and call. I would listen to your every problem and spend hours trying to make you feel better. I would sit by as you vented for hours about every little thing.

I cared enough to sit there for hours just to be there because you needed me there. I forgot about everything I had going on just to be by your side. You knew I would drop anything to be there for you so you took full advantage of that.

You took full advantage of my heart of gold and my desire to be everything you needed.The second you figured out I would care for you not matter what, you started to treat me like trash. You began to overlook my feelings and cared more about what was in it for you.

You didn’t care about me anymore, you cared about getting what you wanted. It didn’t matter what I was doing or how I was. You dropped the small talk. The calls became less frequent because it was only when you needed something.

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I Always Put You First, But You Always Kept Me As a Second Choice

I was a young girl when I fell for you. Over and over, I let you hurt me and come back. Repeatedly, I came second to you. Only coming back when things didn’t work with your last relationship.

For so long, I talked myself into believing that it was some commitment issue of yours. I made these excuses – story-like ideas – in my mind that made me believe that I meant more to you than I probably ever did.

I vividly remember the days when you left and I would spend hours laying on the cold, tile floor just to feel something. My chest heaving with the pain that came with being second once again.

I’ve spent years instinctively looking for any remnants of you. Hoping that one day you would simply realize everything that you did wrong.

But sadly, I found myself wishing for things that wouldn’t happen.

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For The Girl Who Feels Like She’s Everyone’s Second Choice, Read This

She feels like she is just one of the people’s many options, and yet she just sticks around and waits to get picked. She knows she is better than being people’s backup plan, and she doesn’t deserve to be the second choice.

And yet here she is, being treated that way.

She cares so much about everyone around her, to the point where she has a hard time telling them she is hurt by their actions.

Honestly, she’d rather allow her own feelings to get hurt than to hurt someone else’s.

But what she needs to realize is that people can see it. She lives her life not giving herself credit, or treating herself like a top priority, so no one else does.

Once she begins to respect herself, other people will respect her too.

Except she is so caught up in her head, jumping to conclusions… and they’re never good ones. She can’t stop overthinking every single thing that happens in her day, no matter how hard she tries.

She loves with her entire heart but her heart is extremely stubborn as well.She would do anything for those she cared about and ask for nothing in return.

It’s exhausting though trying to be the better person for everyone. It takes a toll on her.

What she needs is to take a deep breath.

No matter what it was that made her become like this, it’s okay. A relationship, her parents, a toxic friendship, it could even have been a mix of the three.

But what she needs to remind herself is that in any form of relationship both parties should be equal. She deserves to be treated like she is important because she is important.

And she is so much more wonderful than she thinks she is.

She has a beautiful soul which makes her an inspiring person so she needs to put herself first sometimes.

There’s a simple phrase out there from the wonderful Dr. Suess that goes a little something like this…

“Those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.”

So here’s that daily reminder that you are not an option so don’t let people treat you one.

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