To my toxic summer fling I fell for

In every girls life; there’s a boy she’ll never forget and a summer where it all started”

To the boy of Summer

 

I went into the Summer with a clear head that whatever happened, happened. But I wasn’t prepared for the toxic summer storm of you to come through and sweep me away. It all started out so innocently, and I wish it could go back to that.

 

I’d see you out at a party, we’d flirt and gaze at each other like we were seeing something for the first time. I don’t know what you saw when you looked at me, but I saw a flawed boy who I thought was perfect. Despite everyone’s thoughts about you, i was infatuated. You came out of know where like the storm clouds rolling over the mountains, and I should’ve ran for shelter right then.

 

Your words seemed so genuine, and maybe they were at that point. But throughout the summer months something changed. Maybe it was because of what I did, but now looking back I don’t think it was. I took the blame for putting out our flame, and I will if I need to.

 

It didn’t take me long to fall for you, just a couple nights together with you by my side. You showed me off at first, and told me everything I wanted to hear. But then all of a sudden it was gone. You turned into what everyone said you were. Maybe it was my mistake to think that you would’ve been different for me. You made me vulnerable, and you made me naive. You brought out the side i don’t ever show anyone.

 

And you threw it in my face.

I would’ve done anything for you, and you used it to your advantage for months afterwards. I kept thinking it was because you wanted to spend time with me, and when I realized it wasn’t I still came to you. I answered all your calls and texts even though I knew you were just searching for a ride or someone to sleep next to. I knew you only called when you wanted to feel cared about again. I wanted to be with you more than you knew. Not even in the relationship way, I just wanted to spend time with you like the way we used to. But all you wanted was something convenient and when I wasn’t you pushed me aside.

To say the least, I clung to hope of an “us”. And even though your still around, and I see you everywhere I go I know I need to move on. Not only because you don’t feel the same way, but because you took everything I was with you when you walked away. I don’t usually chase anyone, but I chased you. I don’t usually feel for anyone, but I felt for you. Finally, I don’t usually love anyone but I loved you.

I lost myself trying to find you.

I don’t regret our summer together, and i don’t resent you. But sometimes I wonder, should i be thankful our paths intersected or wished we never met if you weren’t gonna stay in the first place?

Either way, you taught me never to lose myself for the love of someone else. I hope one day you’ll let someone get close to you, just know it won’t be me anymore.

Now that summer is gone, so am I.

Your Voice Was The Soundtrack Of My Summer

“Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer. Do you know you’re unlike any other? You’ll always be my thunder, and I said, Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors. I don’t wanna ever love another” -Boys Like Girls

 

I caught his glance as the sun was setting on that mid-summer night. They started the bonfire and you came and sat right next to me and handed me a Coors. I thought you were cocky but somehow you still seemed to make me smile.

 

You convinced me to stay longer that night. We went to the parking lot and you placed your hand in mine. You held the nape of my neck and pulled me in for a soft kiss.

 

I looked into your eyes and the light of the moon reflected back. In that moment I knew you were going to be the highlight of my summer.

 

And it was a summer romance like no other. It was two months of passion and recklessness. We didn’t care what anyone had to say or how long it would last. To you and I we didn’t care what tomorrow had in store. What meant most was right now.

 

He somehow made me face all my fears while he took me on every summer adventure for those couple months. It was crazy to put all my time and my love into someone who I knew wasn’t going to make it in the fall.

13 Reasons Why Summer Flings are the Best Relationships for 20 Somethings

The summer is the most wonderful time of year. School is out, work is more relaxed, and life is just less stressful in general. If you’ve been single for a while, consider experimenting with a summer fling this season. Summer flings are the best kind of relationships because it’s casual, low pressure, and sexy. There’s a lot to do in the summer so there’s never a shortage of date ideas, and when the fall comes around, you can go your separate ways without any heartbreak.

Here are 13 reasons why you should definitely have a summer fling:

 

1. Everyone is instantly hotter.

Lots of tan skin and skimpy clothes = total hotness. That 6 in the puffer jacket just became a perfect 10 with sunglasses and a six-pack.

 

2. You have more free time.

You’re out of school or you have summer Fridays and holiday weekends. No one is rushing home to get warm and sleep, so you and your boo can go on adventures to the beach.

 

3. You can stay out later.

The sun stays out later so drinks after work isn’t even a thought. You have more time to spend with your fling and enjoy your freedom.

 

4. There are so many date possibilities.

Biking, kayaking, surfing, jogging, swimming, beachin, camping, road tripping… the possibilities are endless. No more boring dinner and movie dates.

 

5. Flings don’t have to be exclusive.

A fling is meant to be casual, easy, and relaxed. It’s so much more fun having someone there to play with, but without any worries about a jealous over-bearing partner.

 

6. Everyone is generally happier.

The warm weather and longer days makes everyone more open to new experiences. You can try something new–like asking your fling to teach you how to surf. Even if you fail horribly, there’s not really that much embarrassment, because it’s not like you’re going to see him after next month anyway.

 

7. No one takes life too seriously in the summer.

It’s kind of like the whole world takes on the LA mindset. Life is good, everything is chill, and plans revolve around going to the beach. A summer boyfriend will take you there and appreciate those freshly shaved legs. You didn’t do all that work for nothing.

 

8. Sex is way better on the beach.

Cuddling under the covers during the winter is cozy and all, but it really doesn’t come close to some messy sexy-time in the sand.

 

9. You always look good, and there’s no need to wear makeup.

Instead of worrying about getting dressed up for a date, all you need are shorts, a tee, and sunnies. Simple and easy.

 

10. You and your partner are in shape.

Everyone is beach body ready, so you’ll get to see plenty of his sexy abs. Unless you’re into the whole dad bod thing, in which case you’ll have a great cuddle buddy to curl up with by the waves.

 

11. You date out of your comfort zone.

A summer fling is with someone with whom you can have fun. You aren’t dating him with the same mindset you have when you’re considering a partner for the long term. He’s someone from a different background, has different values and interests, and pushes you to try new things and be different.

 

12. You can get comfortable in a relationship really fast.

In a summer fling you don’t need to keep your guard up and play it cool. You can express your weird self without the fear of judgment or rejection, because this isn’t long-term anyway. It’s okay to have majorly different perspectives because you can learn about something new in a fun way, without worrying about disagreements in the future.

 

13. When the summer comes to an end, there’s no heartbreak.

When your schedule picks up again in the fall you can part ways or stay friends. But you don’t feel any major loss because it was all just for fun.

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