It’s been this way as long as I can remember, sisters but not friends.
We don’t get along half of the time, we don’t share secrets, we don’t talk about love interests.
I thought sisters braided each other’s hair, watched movies together, talked about everything.
We never did that and we still don’t.
I always wanted to be closer but I’m starting to think that will never happen.
Maybe I am just expecting too much but I don’t think my expectations are too great.
As we got into our teen years we grew apart even further. We had pretty much nothing in common.
You got annoyed every time I bring up a boy because I am “too boy crazy??? but, the thing is that I’m not.
I just wanted to talk to you about what was going on in my life.
When we were kids you always seemed to be annoyed by me and I thought that was normal. You annoyed me too sometimes.
That was okay, though. I knew that we were sisters.
I’m in my twenties now and you still don’t trust me, still don’t understand anything about me and I sincerely doubt you like me.
You think that I am still boy crazy and that I need to prove I love the guy for you to believe me.
You think I am a bad sister and a bad daughter because I didn’t stick around to help take care of things.
You think all these things about me yet you still don’t know me.
We aren’t close.
You blame me for that but the thing is, it isn’t me. It’s you.
You are the one who still won’t let me in.
That’s okay, though. You don’t need to.
We may not be friends but we are sisters and I will always be here for you.
I love you and I hope someday we will find a way to be both friends and sisters.